Keep Your Hands To Your Self,or Be Prepared To Get The Same Treatment Your Giving Others

So I haven't blogged in a long time,but this was something I felt I had to post. Today was an interesting day,not one of the best,but could be worse. So for some reason today,people felt the need to put there hands on me(mind you I'm relaxed the whole day). First in gym someone wants to hit me,and when I get into the locker room I pushed and shoved the person and kicked. Like if  you don't want me to put my hands on you,keep them to yourself. We can always exchange words,but when people get psychical you have agreed to accepted whats coming for you. Then later on I decided to go to lunch with 3 of my school "friends",nothing serous. I ordered food that was way too much,and end up only eating a very small portion of it. It was so big,it wasn't appetizing. So while we're talking,you decided to throw something at me and when I throw it back you get mad. Like what did you expect,for me to sit there. And if you don't like food being thrown at you,don't throw it! Then you take food and throw it in my face,yes it was a small portion but still that disrespectful. I just don't understand people,where do you come off as someone who can do that and get away with it. So I took my BBQ fingers and threw some at you,which stained your shirt,but who cares thats nothing compare to what was thrown in my face. Like we're graduating now,time to grow up. We can disagree with out fighting. Makes us look ignorant...

The Feeling Of Not Feeling Feelings Sometimes Disturbs Me

I Get What I Want, At Least I think I Do...

Well I went to the store I wanted to today,and I saw one nice dress. But I want a better one,to accommodated my big ass shoulders!

Pure B.S

Seriously my mom needs to stand up for certain things. I'm suppose to be visiting another dress shop in long island,but my step father refuses to take us. Its not like my mother can't drive,she's afraid to do it on her own. Which pisses me the FUCK OFF! This is my senior year FUCK my step father is he doesn't want to take us,do it on your own! Your becoming a dependent,if you don't know how to get there,get a GPS thing for like $100. So what if your car is messed up,I'm your daughter,do what you have to do in order to get what your daughter needs.

P.S: If I don't get the dress I want,or if anything gets delayed by him. I will never forgive you...
P.S.S: AND I'M SEROUS!

"Lets Talk About Sex"

"Lets Talk About Sex" was a show I came across last night. It explored the topic of sex,and how people from different cultures approach the "the talk" with their children. People in the U.S see it as an awkward thing, something that shouldn't be mention until after the fact. I'm going to be very honest,I'm one of those people in the U.S that finds this topic awkward. For example when I was in class,and my teacher was reading a very intimate part. It made me feel weird,and I could tell around the room it made other students weird. I mean because he's a teacher,and we knew we shouldn't know these things until we're some what of an adult. But in this case he was relax,and I remembered he said he lived in London for some time. Then it hit me,European's mentality isn't shying away from it, but facing it head on. It was also shown in the show. They visit Denmark, and the parents & teenagers there saw it as a nature thing. They know it's going to happen eventually,so they focus on the safe sex part more, and it worked! When they showed the statistics of U.S's STI rates,compare to the other counties, we were far ahead(and I mean way far ahead). They also shown the teen pregnancies, and it was the same thing, They also said a fatal mistake the U.S did, was the categories they put sex in. They put sex on the same level as drugs, and drinking. Which wouldn't work because as teenagers we say "Ohhh I wanna try that..." In stead of saying "I have time for that later,it's going to come...". We can't put sex on the same level as drugs and alcohol because it's NATURAL! I always wondered how other human beings on a remote island know what to do when wanting a child. Its a simple answer,we as human beings know that sex is a process in order to have a child,or pleasure (and by even writing this I have conflicted thoughts). We as people in the U.S have been conditioned by our culture, religion,and our surrounding to not tackle the subject sex. But we should think twice about it. I've always notice Tanisha's cousins speak freely about it time to time,and they know I'm young. But they come from Europe, and it doesn't matter. I would love to raise my child like that,but I have to rewire myself & thoughts. So now I'm trying to keep my mind open,but it's hard because of my little sister smh(I wish I was last so I wouldn't have to worry & take responsibilities).

P.S:  I don't think Ill every be able to talk to my parents about that stuff,yuck.

P.S.S: I'm serous...

Prom...

So yesterday I went to look at prom dresses,and I wanted to die. I found nothing but crappy stuff,or things that couldn't fit. I'm hoping to go by myself next time I look,and I mean by myself as in with a friend,and without my mother.All yesterday she was stressing me out,in stead of helping me find a dress.I finally went to the boutique I've been wanting to go to in a long time,and she was pressuring me to leave. I really felt like screaming at her,but I bit my tongue and started walking faster, which made me loose her for like 15 minutes(with out a phone).I found another place to go to, but I'm crossing my fingers they have my size.I also need to get off this water weight,it wont look good with the dress(plus Tanisha's stressing me out about it).I thought I wouldn't stress about prom,but I am.I wont be able to get my dress made anymore,and I hate the grandma dresses they made for plus size GIRLS!!!!! NOT GRANDMA LUCY BUT YOUNG GIRLS...FUCK! I sometimes wish I could scream this in the designers ears right before they start sketching the clothing! I also I have to find a color that would accommodate both my skin tone and hair. smh.....my sad story

P.S: My head is pounding,and I have to study for my mid-term and do my Economics HW

Love...A Fatal Sickness

This song says so much without many words. It's something all lovers should hear with open minds. It will help them understand that maybe they have changed,and on the other hand it could help people understand love all together...