Bye Bye 2010 HELLO 2011....I Hope You'll Be Good

So this will be my last post of this year.It was only in June when I started my blog. It have gone in many directions,but my main goal was to keep it interesting.So I'm putting up my best and worst things of this year. My hope for next year,and much more.

The Worst Of 2010

• Not being able to find a job. This was a killer for me,but I did a second test at Walgreens, hopefully I get the job.
• The stress from college,and the fact that my sister decided to go on my senior year.During that time all I kept thinking was the lack of money my parents would have to send us both.I sometimes have trouble with it now.
• The earth quake that happen in Haiti. To see the once beautiful country turn into dust was devastating to me.My people were suffering,and I haven't yet experience the best of the country. It's some what too late now.
• My mother financial situation. This have been the worst of all times.My mother always had a back up plan,but for some reason this year was really bad.
• The MTA raising the bus fares in NYC. I really feel someone is getting paid too much money. There's something fishy with those CEOs and someone needs to check them.
• Lack of real talent. Our generation only put out crap,compare to the older ones.For the first time I understand why the older generation is scared of our decision.
• Not getting that job at S.Q.P.A. I thought I was going to get it,but it was more about favorites. What ever I grown from it.

The Best Of This Year

• My fashion sense. I have grown some what into my own style,and I'm happy about that. This is how a young person should start off into the crazy world. YaY(giving myself a pat on my back)
• My relationship with Janiri. Yes we have grown into beautiful young ladies. I actually grown with a friend. Most of my friends have went through that stage. I'm happy I didn't do it alone.
• My new friendships with people such as Kathy & Shirley. I never ever thought I would really become cool with new people,but I have and I'm glad I did.
• Sha Sha's new BF, yeah her first pick was a good pick. Great Job!
• My smooth sailing through senior year. I love the feeling of doing well in school,while having fun as a teenager.
• Doing things on my own,and finding out what truly makes me happy.
• Keeping those who matter to me close.

What I'm Hoping For Next Year

• All I really want is a positive attitude
• New fresh clothes
• At least one class of yoga
• I would say boyfriend,but that might confuse things. So I say a brand new friendship. Something like this year
• A great job
• A wonderful college,and great grades
• Finish my last year in High School with a bang,and start my fresh page with a whisk of loveliness
• A better blog where a lot of people follow it,and I get featured in a magazine for my style.

SO I'LL SEE YOU NEXT YEAR. LOVE ME MORE!!!!!!!!!!

P.S: IT'S ONLY TEN MINUTES TO THE NEXT YEAR,I'M EXCITED!!!!

P.S.S: I also would like good health for my family and friends. Please grant me that over all else.

P.S.S.S:Bye Bye 2010 HELLO 2011....I Hope You'll Be Good

The Last Mistress...Well At-least Thats What She Thought

Just finish watching The Last Mistress, and thought I'm upset at the ending(well at the reality of things).It was an OK movie,and some what truthful to how men are when it comes to the other woman.The lack of morals,and daring attitude towards the legit female is what draws them in.Something I now understand,but I couldn't see myself as the other woman.You have to have a lack of respect,and confidence to settle for a taken man.

To the females that like to be the mistress...

You thought you found a gold coin in the river,but have to ever check the sea? Theres a lot more from where that came from but it takes patience,you'll see.

(By the way I made this up myself)

P.S:I had to skip some of the scene,it was a tad bit much ugh!

P.S.S:I respect the wife at the end,she held her head high,she deserves a standing ovation.

With that being said,time for the next movie. I need something up beat.These tragic romance movies are making me sad! As a young female, watching these marriages fail will make it harder for me to get married. I know they're just movies but it doesn't defeat the fact that things like this happen to real life couples all the time. I'm crossing my fingers for a good future.

So this morning I went outside,or to the market. Mind you the roads haven't been cleared yet. I was in direr need of fruits,and a feel good sandwich.Sadly when I arrived to the market,they told me the deli guy wasn't in. I was so psst, I walked FOUR BLOCKS(which felt like a foot ball feild) just for some honey turkey meat,and he has the nerves not to be there. Ugh the agony. Lucky though I found two boys will to clean my front yard and a bit of my backyard $20 each. My mother was pissed that I gave them that much,but I thought it was perfectly fine. I mean we were out there,and it's really bad.So yes I rather pay $40 to sit in my house and not work outside!!!!!!!

Anyways I found three movies I want to watch.

1)The Last Mistress

From the reviews they said it was stupid,and didn't fit it's time period. But hey the other women always makes me wonder.

2) The Piano Teacher

Every time I hear a teacher getting in evolved with a student,I find it every interesting. I wonder what they talk about? What steps do they take to hide their relationship.

3)Lust, Caution

Its about an actress stuck in a bad place, and of course there is a man there to save her. I had dreams about this so of course it drawn me in.

So off I go to watch my movies!!!!

Que?

No More French Drama Movies,I'm so lost right now it's not even funny. I spent TWO hours of my time trying to figure out something, with no meaning. It made no sense what so ever other then the fact that the main character was in a tragic accident with her best-friend. I'm not one to give bad remarks on movies,because many times it should be viewed in a different light.This movie on the other hand was really bad,well not the acting but the plot was. I'll just stick to my romantic French movies,because thats what the French are best known for(their romance!).

maintenant pour le prochain film, et oui il est fort probable français...

Snow Day

So today was a good day. I'm watching a good French movie thanks to Janiri who changed her tasted from Romantic Comedy, to French movies. It's good so far. I went outside today FOUR TIMES!!! The first two times wasn't that bad,but the last two was crazy!!! I didn't see the steps at all,I only saw snow,and I was walking on snow only.The snow came right under my knee, thank god I found my Uggs at the last minute or I would have been finished. I was playing the Michael Jackson game again,and once again I left like I lost a pound from that game.

Well back to my movie, I still searching for something I really want to watch!

P.S:If it snows like this during school days. Well you know I'm staying home. I'm not going to risk my well being for being in school for 3-4 hours. Anyways my Mom did the same thing in the past,and she broke her leg. I'll be stupid if I follow in her steps.

PS.S.:The only thing wrong with this movie is the translation. They don't get everything,and I know because I know a little French!!!! GET IT RIGHT PEOPLE!!!! They're just one or two words off,but it makes all the difference.

So yesterday was Christmas. I would like to say Merry Christmas to everyone,even though mines wasn't the greatest. I was quite bitter today because of the fact my mother didn't get me anything,she asked me to understand,but naturally I didn't. I felt real bad for my sister because she sat in bed really sad. I'm going to get her something nice,and worth it,she deserves it.Beside I don't want her to think she was given no gift,but money on Christmas.Oh yeah my little cousin didn't get anything either,only because she was doing bad in school,but still I'm going to get them stuff. We were forced to go to my aunt's house even though I wasn't in the holiday spirit. When we arrived they gave us mad food(typical Haitian family), and they each gave us money(which turn my mood around sort of). When I arrived home I went to Tanisha's house,but she was sick,so I stayed with her family. They had a Wii, which we played "Just Dance 2" and "Micheal Jackson Dance Game".I just got back home from playing both games,and I went there around 8:20 p.m. We danced our butts off!!!! I really think I will loose weight from that game. Best thing too,we were competing against each other,and no one wanted to be the looser. All in all yesterday was a descent day,something I cant really complain about when I get back to school.

P.S:I think my words caught up with me.I said I really didn't want anything for Christmas, but like new clothing. Well thats what I got,money, but now I want something.It doesn't have to be great,but something I could always remember. You really cant do that with money(not saying I don't want the money HEHE).

P.S.S:I'm really looking forward for the next year,I'm done with 2010.

P.S.S.S:I called my father at 11:58, right at the last minute to say Merry Christmas. He sound happy,at least someone didn't forget about him. If only he knew not to forget about us....

Be On Your Merry Way!

So I really never told anybody this,but I really don't like Christmas. I tried to say "I'm happy,everything is going good",but in reality it's not! This is the time you decide to come,at 7:42 p.m, right before all malls close. Like when are you ever going to take responsibilities. I hate to be the needle in everyones balloon,but things aren't great, and we shouldn't act like they are. When you arrive I'm going to pretend I'm sick,and keep to myself.Your time will be wasted,just as mine! Same thing as my birthday. I thank god every year that I saw another one,but sometimes I wonder why the hell is "MY DAY", the worst day for me. I hate people's empty promises. Don't sit there "trying" to make me feel all special knowing you have nothing to show for it. The whole thing becomes pointless,and you loose a lot of respect from me. In my mind thats the worst,loosing respect,because then it will be very hard to gain it back. Besides that I hope everyone have a great Christmas,don't even wish me the same because it's bad!

This begging stuff really makes me mad,and many times hate myself.I love independence to much to have to beg over something so little.I have little that keeps me sane,and grounded.So when I see myself begging for freaking $20 makes me go crazy!!!!!Like I will carry boxes,write out 40 letters by hand then sit there and beg for something to stupid.Ugh,for the first time I'm letting you know this is what makes me very depressed.It may seems I'm over reacting,but I built myself to be someone to stand on their own,and the fact that I have to go against that and beg makes me angry. Every time I say please it takes a little bit of myself worth,plus more.

P.S:I'll be hanging out with Janiri tomorrow,but I don't think I'll enjoy it because of my crappy financial issue.
P.S.S:This crappy music both my mother and step-father are playing is making me even more mad,but I'll try to deal with it.
P.S.S.S:These money hungry pigs never want to give people a chance to better them selves.How much money do one man need!? All humans care about is self-preservation,and this way of thinking is starting to wear on me!

Last night was great. I almost missed the eclipse by a minute. I was trying my best to stay up,but I must have dosed off. I woke up excaly at 2:39, and I saw the sky was black,I knew that it had started. It was funny because a minute later, Janiri hit me up to go look at it. I put on anything,and went outside to see it. At first I only saw a little bit of the moon,only to find out through my window,the moon have been completely covered. I woke up my mother to tell her I was going outside to see this,and surprisingly she came with me!!!Then I saw it even more clearer through my bathroom window. Look at Janiri's blog for the rest,she put it in better words anyways http://thetunetomyheart.blogspot.com/

P.S:I need sleep
P.S.S: My tutor came today and he was cool,besides the fact I kept eating...
P.S.S.S:I applied to more jobs today, hopefully I get a call back

I Thought I Buried You In A Field of Flowers...

Good Night!!

I'm up, and very tired doing this essay. I didn't finish it, but I need my sleep. So good night to those who are still up, and those who are asleep(your lucky!).

This Is A Tribute ASOS

Ok, so now ASOS have my full attention. I catch myself on their website almost everyday to see if they have anything new. If I had money,I'll be in their top ten most valuable costumer list.They have these breath taking black dresses for all sizes, and prices. They have many brands too,and one of my favorite is called Aqua.Their clothing are just amazing, it seems so futuristic,and different.I have a thing for things that stands out differently.I simply adore them,come and take a look at what I found.

AQUA

I fell in love with this dress when I saw it in yearbook class. I think it's the sharp shoulders that makes this dress so appealing to me. Its called "Aqua Pouch Pocket Stretch Dress", and its $137.92

This is another dress that caught my eye. She looks like a royal walking in her palace, and that's why it's so amazing. Can you imagine walking and the cape is flowing, while everyone eyes are fixated on you! It's called "Aqua Wu Dress with Chiffon Cape",and it's $189.64. FYI, it's worth the money!

I can't forget about my plus size females, I mean that's all I do, look for plus size clothing. These dresses are also from ASOS but it's called Curve... I love them because they have clothing that FLATTER all plus size bodies, and shapes. I don't like certain body parts,and this plus size line accommodate to call my issues, and I'm pretty sure they'll accommodate to other plus size females issues too.

CURVE

This dress gives a nice silhouette to some plus size body types. It falls right under the chest, covering any thing you want covered. It's called "Asos Curve Exclusive Chiffon Hitch Dress", and it's only $45.69.

This dress,is short and simple. I could see someone in this dress with colored tights,and their hair done nicely. This dress is called "Asos Curve Sixties Dress with Belt", and it's $65.51.

The new thing now is Capes,and personally I love it! This one is called "Asos Curve Hooded Military Cape" and it's $103.44.

I love this dress because of the Lace. It's called "Asos Curve Slash Neck Lace Dress", and it's $72.41.

I choose two clutches to go with these stunning dresses.

Clutch number 1: It's called "Asos Black Gunmetal Egg Tassel Bag", and it's now $48.27

2: It's called "Asos Patent Frame Clutch" and it's $24.14.

It's this set of clothing amazing!

P.S: I need to hang out with you Ms.Kathy. My next step is to work on my makeup. I was going to buy a full makeup set at Sephora for $50!!!! I need help first hand!

P.S.S: Ms. Cupcakes we need to go shopping,I need to work on my new wardrobe.

Boondocks & Samurai Champloo

I'm in the mood to cuddle up in my bed a watch my favorite shows. Samurai Champloo, and Boondocks.

Samurai Champloo: They hold almost everything I love in one show!!!! Japanese theme, fused with Hip Hop, and the two different types of personalities. I always thought between which two guys would I choose? The wise one name Jin, the intellect who knows how to keep your mind going. Or Mugen, the asshole who you can't get enough of.

The every first episode caught me,and after that it became one of my all time favorites! XD

Boondocks: Wow I love this show sooooo much!!!. First of all the creator of this show deserves so much credit for his amazing work. He became main stream only because people put him out there so much,that's how good he is. He didn't even have to try hard to get people to notice his amazing work. In Boondocks, there is always a story,a lesson, and a reason behind everything. It's sort of done subliminally, which I love! My favorite episode is when Grand-Dad has a dinner date at his house, and the kids knew she was dangerous. All she did was listen to her jealous friend on the phone,and end up killing herself at the end. The lesson will always be a lesson I'll remember, don't always listen to your friends when it comes to a serious relationships,they might not always have your best interest in mind. Just like Samurai Champloo, in this show you have two different personalities,and I love them both. They are so cute,but I couldn't have them for kids,hell no!

The best character though is Uncle Ruckus.He is really funny,a little mean sometimes,but also speak the truth when it comes to certain things.The problem is some people take him too seriously,and I just find him funny. It's quite evident that he has problems,and is some what stupid!

Feeling That Can't Really Be Described

Lately I've been feeling strange. Like something is going to happen. I try to explain to my friends,but they automatically think mother nature is going to drop off her gift soon, and that I'm just emotional. I feel like the change that will be coming soon is either going to be good, or tragic(and I mean tragic as in something that is really far fetch & there's no hope,not death tragic...). When I think of it, it makes me sad,and most of all scared. I wouldn't know how to deal with "whatever it is" when it happens. I usually get this feeling on the bus, on my way to school; or right before I go to sleep. I try to think of good things, but it always turn back to me running away. I think that's why I want to take a road trip so bad. I need to get away,I need to look,find, or get something. I just need to go!

P.S: I hate the way that black cat looks at me in the morning

P.S.S: My little sister hates that black cat too!

P.S.S.S: I want to turn into another creature. Something like Avatar, but I'll be brown, black, gold, and forest green. My eyes will be stone green, and I'll have long gold hair. Could you imagine a beautiful creature like that =]

I Need To Get Back

I need to get back to my creative side. I lost it some where under all these exceptions, and piles of work that was drop on me since the beginning of senior year. I still have to send those pictures for yearbook, and keep my mind fresh and ready for anything that comes my way. I went to 42 street time square, and it was a huge mess. For some reason I felt the need to go on my own, just to see if I was still myself. The million dollar questing is, was I still myself? Bing Bing Bing Bing, yes I am. I arrived there sort of late, but I didn't care. I went to ForEver21, since they had the plus size line there, and I was looking for a class mate who work there, but I couldn't find her. Anyways, I saw some cute things, some cute things on sale and I went ahead and bought them. I haven't went shopping in a long time. This is what I bought!

I didn't actually buy this because they didn't have my size,but I love it!

I saw this and thought "For something so simple, you caught my eye!"

For that dress,I was thinking about suede pumps. It seems fitting, and I knew exactly where to go to!

These shoes are wide width at Torrid.com for just $39.

OK,so back to my shopping day. I walked to 34 fourth street, and went to Macy's because I had to use the restroom. Coming back from the restroom, I saw that big old red mailbox, for children to send their letters to Santa. I wanted to kick that crap to the floor. Old jolly, cookie eating, gray hair Santa didn't give me anything I wanted when I was a child. But when I saw the children sitting there, trying their best to write, made my heart melt, and it was kind-of touching. So I went on to H&M and got me a shirt that could fit, to my best of ability! HA! Then I went back to my Drama place, that I called a home =]

I'm a little light headed, so I'll be hitting my bed real soon.

P.S: I hope your Holiday goes great this year

P.S.S: I slowly starting my fashion blogging again!

P.S.S.S: She found the big book of Sugar,Spice & Everything Nice!

P.S.S.S.S: I'm going to get closer to God, and I'll ask him for help...goodnight!

I Always Knew You Were Unfair,But At Least Have The Decency To Hide It

True Facts Spoken

Today just made me realize, the only dependent I should have is myself. How I feel, and what I say don't matter much to many people. Not saying that it should,just speaking facts.