Bye Bye 2010 HELLO 2011....I Hope You'll Be Good

So this will be my last post of this year.It was only in June when I started my blog. It have gone in many directions,but my main goal was to keep it interesting.So I'm putting up my best and worst things of this year. My hope for next year,and much more.

The Worst Of 2010

• Not being able to find a job. This was a killer for me,but I did a second test at Walgreens, hopefully I get the job.
• The stress from college,and the fact that my sister decided to go on my senior year.During that time all I kept thinking was the lack of money my parents would have to send us both.I sometimes have trouble with it now.
• The earth quake that happen in Haiti. To see the once beautiful country turn into dust was devastating to me.My people were suffering,and I haven't yet experience the best of the country. It's some what too late now.
• My mother financial situation. This have been the worst of all times.My mother always had a back up plan,but for some reason this year was really bad.
• The MTA raising the bus fares in NYC. I really feel someone is getting paid too much money. There's something fishy with those CEOs and someone needs to check them.
• Lack of real talent. Our generation only put out crap,compare to the older ones.For the first time I understand why the older generation is scared of our decision.
• Not getting that job at S.Q.P.A. I thought I was going to get it,but it was more about favorites. What ever I grown from it.

The Best Of This Year

• My fashion sense. I have grown some what into my own style,and I'm happy about that. This is how a young person should start off into the crazy world. YaY(giving myself a pat on my back)
• My relationship with Janiri. Yes we have grown into beautiful young ladies. I actually grown with a friend. Most of my friends have went through that stage. I'm happy I didn't do it alone.
• My new friendships with people such as Kathy & Shirley. I never ever thought I would really become cool with new people,but I have and I'm glad I did.
• Sha Sha's new BF, yeah her first pick was a good pick. Great Job!
• My smooth sailing through senior year. I love the feeling of doing well in school,while having fun as a teenager.
• Doing things on my own,and finding out what truly makes me happy.
• Keeping those who matter to me close.

What I'm Hoping For Next Year

• All I really want is a positive attitude
• New fresh clothes
• At least one class of yoga
• I would say boyfriend,but that might confuse things. So I say a brand new friendship. Something like this year
• A great job
• A wonderful college,and great grades
• Finish my last year in High School with a bang,and start my fresh page with a whisk of loveliness
• A better blog where a lot of people follow it,and I get featured in a magazine for my style.

SO I'LL SEE YOU NEXT YEAR. LOVE ME MORE!!!!!!!!!!

P.S: IT'S ONLY TEN MINUTES TO THE NEXT YEAR,I'M EXCITED!!!!

P.S.S: I also would like good health for my family and friends. Please grant me that over all else.

P.S.S.S:Bye Bye 2010 HELLO 2011....I Hope You'll Be Good

The Last Mistress...Well At-least Thats What She Thought

Just finish watching The Last Mistress, and thought I'm upset at the ending(well at the reality of things).It was an OK movie,and some what truthful to how men are when it comes to the other woman.The lack of morals,and daring attitude towards the legit female is what draws them in.Something I now understand,but I couldn't see myself as the other woman.You have to have a lack of respect,and confidence to settle for a taken man.

To the females that like to be the mistress...

You thought you found a gold coin in the river,but have to ever check the sea? Theres a lot more from where that came from but it takes patience,you'll see.

(By the way I made this up myself)

P.S:I had to skip some of the scene,it was a tad bit much ugh!

P.S.S:I respect the wife at the end,she held her head high,she deserves a standing ovation.

With that being said,time for the next movie. I need something up beat.These tragic romance movies are making me sad! As a young female, watching these marriages fail will make it harder for me to get married. I know they're just movies but it doesn't defeat the fact that things like this happen to real life couples all the time. I'm crossing my fingers for a good future.

So this morning I went outside,or to the market. Mind you the roads haven't been cleared yet. I was in direr need of fruits,and a feel good sandwich.Sadly when I arrived to the market,they told me the deli guy wasn't in. I was so psst, I walked FOUR BLOCKS(which felt like a foot ball feild) just for some honey turkey meat,and he has the nerves not to be there. Ugh the agony. Lucky though I found two boys will to clean my front yard and a bit of my backyard $20 each. My mother was pissed that I gave them that much,but I thought it was perfectly fine. I mean we were out there,and it's really bad.So yes I rather pay $40 to sit in my house and not work outside!!!!!!!

Anyways I found three movies I want to watch.

1)The Last Mistress

From the reviews they said it was stupid,and didn't fit it's time period. But hey the other women always makes me wonder.

2) The Piano Teacher

Every time I hear a teacher getting in evolved with a student,I find it every interesting. I wonder what they talk about? What steps do they take to hide their relationship.

3)Lust, Caution

Its about an actress stuck in a bad place, and of course there is a man there to save her. I had dreams about this so of course it drawn me in.

So off I go to watch my movies!!!!

Que?

No More French Drama Movies,I'm so lost right now it's not even funny. I spent TWO hours of my time trying to figure out something, with no meaning. It made no sense what so ever other then the fact that the main character was in a tragic accident with her best-friend. I'm not one to give bad remarks on movies,because many times it should be viewed in a different light.This movie on the other hand was really bad,well not the acting but the plot was. I'll just stick to my romantic French movies,because thats what the French are best known for(their romance!).

maintenant pour le prochain film, et oui il est fort probable français...

Snow Day

So today was a good day. I'm watching a good French movie thanks to Janiri who changed her tasted from Romantic Comedy, to French movies. It's good so far. I went outside today FOUR TIMES!!! The first two times wasn't that bad,but the last two was crazy!!! I didn't see the steps at all,I only saw snow,and I was walking on snow only.The snow came right under my knee, thank god I found my Uggs at the last minute or I would have been finished. I was playing the Michael Jackson game again,and once again I left like I lost a pound from that game.

Well back to my movie, I still searching for something I really want to watch!

P.S:If it snows like this during school days. Well you know I'm staying home. I'm not going to risk my well being for being in school for 3-4 hours. Anyways my Mom did the same thing in the past,and she broke her leg. I'll be stupid if I follow in her steps.

PS.S.:The only thing wrong with this movie is the translation. They don't get everything,and I know because I know a little French!!!! GET IT RIGHT PEOPLE!!!! They're just one or two words off,but it makes all the difference.

So yesterday was Christmas. I would like to say Merry Christmas to everyone,even though mines wasn't the greatest. I was quite bitter today because of the fact my mother didn't get me anything,she asked me to understand,but naturally I didn't. I felt real bad for my sister because she sat in bed really sad. I'm going to get her something nice,and worth it,she deserves it.Beside I don't want her to think she was given no gift,but money on Christmas.Oh yeah my little cousin didn't get anything either,only because she was doing bad in school,but still I'm going to get them stuff. We were forced to go to my aunt's house even though I wasn't in the holiday spirit. When we arrived they gave us mad food(typical Haitian family), and they each gave us money(which turn my mood around sort of). When I arrived home I went to Tanisha's house,but she was sick,so I stayed with her family. They had a Wii, which we played "Just Dance 2" and "Micheal Jackson Dance Game".I just got back home from playing both games,and I went there around 8:20 p.m. We danced our butts off!!!! I really think I will loose weight from that game. Best thing too,we were competing against each other,and no one wanted to be the looser. All in all yesterday was a descent day,something I cant really complain about when I get back to school.

P.S:I think my words caught up with me.I said I really didn't want anything for Christmas, but like new clothing. Well thats what I got,money, but now I want something.It doesn't have to be great,but something I could always remember. You really cant do that with money(not saying I don't want the money HEHE).

P.S.S:I'm really looking forward for the next year,I'm done with 2010.

P.S.S.S:I called my father at 11:58, right at the last minute to say Merry Christmas. He sound happy,at least someone didn't forget about him. If only he knew not to forget about us....

Be On Your Merry Way!

So I really never told anybody this,but I really don't like Christmas. I tried to say "I'm happy,everything is going good",but in reality it's not! This is the time you decide to come,at 7:42 p.m, right before all malls close. Like when are you ever going to take responsibilities. I hate to be the needle in everyones balloon,but things aren't great, and we shouldn't act like they are. When you arrive I'm going to pretend I'm sick,and keep to myself.Your time will be wasted,just as mine! Same thing as my birthday. I thank god every year that I saw another one,but sometimes I wonder why the hell is "MY DAY", the worst day for me. I hate people's empty promises. Don't sit there "trying" to make me feel all special knowing you have nothing to show for it. The whole thing becomes pointless,and you loose a lot of respect from me. In my mind thats the worst,loosing respect,because then it will be very hard to gain it back. Besides that I hope everyone have a great Christmas,don't even wish me the same because it's bad!

This begging stuff really makes me mad,and many times hate myself.I love independence to much to have to beg over something so little.I have little that keeps me sane,and grounded.So when I see myself begging for freaking $20 makes me go crazy!!!!!Like I will carry boxes,write out 40 letters by hand then sit there and beg for something to stupid.Ugh,for the first time I'm letting you know this is what makes me very depressed.It may seems I'm over reacting,but I built myself to be someone to stand on their own,and the fact that I have to go against that and beg makes me angry. Every time I say please it takes a little bit of myself worth,plus more.

P.S:I'll be hanging out with Janiri tomorrow,but I don't think I'll enjoy it because of my crappy financial issue.
P.S.S:This crappy music both my mother and step-father are playing is making me even more mad,but I'll try to deal with it.
P.S.S.S:These money hungry pigs never want to give people a chance to better them selves.How much money do one man need!? All humans care about is self-preservation,and this way of thinking is starting to wear on me!

Last night was great. I almost missed the eclipse by a minute. I was trying my best to stay up,but I must have dosed off. I woke up excaly at 2:39, and I saw the sky was black,I knew that it had started. It was funny because a minute later, Janiri hit me up to go look at it. I put on anything,and went outside to see it. At first I only saw a little bit of the moon,only to find out through my window,the moon have been completely covered. I woke up my mother to tell her I was going outside to see this,and surprisingly she came with me!!!Then I saw it even more clearer through my bathroom window. Look at Janiri's blog for the rest,she put it in better words anyways http://thetunetomyheart.blogspot.com/

P.S:I need sleep
P.S.S: My tutor came today and he was cool,besides the fact I kept eating...
P.S.S.S:I applied to more jobs today, hopefully I get a call back

I Thought I Buried You In A Field of Flowers...

Good Night!!

I'm up, and very tired doing this essay. I didn't finish it, but I need my sleep. So good night to those who are still up, and those who are asleep(your lucky!).

This Is A Tribute ASOS

Ok, so now ASOS have my full attention. I catch myself on their website almost everyday to see if they have anything new. If I had money,I'll be in their top ten most valuable costumer list.They have these breath taking black dresses for all sizes, and prices. They have many brands too,and one of my favorite is called Aqua.Their clothing are just amazing, it seems so futuristic,and different.I have a thing for things that stands out differently.I simply adore them,come and take a look at what I found.

AQUA

I fell in love with this dress when I saw it in yearbook class. I think it's the sharp shoulders that makes this dress so appealing to me. Its called "Aqua Pouch Pocket Stretch Dress", and its $137.92

This is another dress that caught my eye. She looks like a royal walking in her palace, and that's why it's so amazing. Can you imagine walking and the cape is flowing, while everyone eyes are fixated on you! It's called "Aqua Wu Dress with Chiffon Cape",and it's $189.64. FYI, it's worth the money!

I can't forget about my plus size females, I mean that's all I do, look for plus size clothing. These dresses are also from ASOS but it's called Curve... I love them because they have clothing that FLATTER all plus size bodies, and shapes. I don't like certain body parts,and this plus size line accommodate to call my issues, and I'm pretty sure they'll accommodate to other plus size females issues too.

CURVE

This dress gives a nice silhouette to some plus size body types. It falls right under the chest, covering any thing you want covered. It's called "Asos Curve Exclusive Chiffon Hitch Dress", and it's only $45.69.

This dress,is short and simple. I could see someone in this dress with colored tights,and their hair done nicely. This dress is called "Asos Curve Sixties Dress with Belt", and it's $65.51.

The new thing now is Capes,and personally I love it! This one is called "Asos Curve Hooded Military Cape" and it's $103.44.

I love this dress because of the Lace. It's called "Asos Curve Slash Neck Lace Dress", and it's $72.41.

I choose two clutches to go with these stunning dresses.

Clutch number 1: It's called "Asos Black Gunmetal Egg Tassel Bag", and it's now $48.27

2: It's called "Asos Patent Frame Clutch" and it's $24.14.

It's this set of clothing amazing!

P.S: I need to hang out with you Ms.Kathy. My next step is to work on my makeup. I was going to buy a full makeup set at Sephora for $50!!!! I need help first hand!

P.S.S: Ms. Cupcakes we need to go shopping,I need to work on my new wardrobe.

Boondocks & Samurai Champloo

I'm in the mood to cuddle up in my bed a watch my favorite shows. Samurai Champloo, and Boondocks.

Samurai Champloo: They hold almost everything I love in one show!!!! Japanese theme, fused with Hip Hop, and the two different types of personalities. I always thought between which two guys would I choose? The wise one name Jin, the intellect who knows how to keep your mind going. Or Mugen, the asshole who you can't get enough of.

The every first episode caught me,and after that it became one of my all time favorites! XD

Boondocks: Wow I love this show sooooo much!!!. First of all the creator of this show deserves so much credit for his amazing work. He became main stream only because people put him out there so much,that's how good he is. He didn't even have to try hard to get people to notice his amazing work. In Boondocks, there is always a story,a lesson, and a reason behind everything. It's sort of done subliminally, which I love! My favorite episode is when Grand-Dad has a dinner date at his house, and the kids knew she was dangerous. All she did was listen to her jealous friend on the phone,and end up killing herself at the end. The lesson will always be a lesson I'll remember, don't always listen to your friends when it comes to a serious relationships,they might not always have your best interest in mind. Just like Samurai Champloo, in this show you have two different personalities,and I love them both. They are so cute,but I couldn't have them for kids,hell no!

The best character though is Uncle Ruckus.He is really funny,a little mean sometimes,but also speak the truth when it comes to certain things.The problem is some people take him too seriously,and I just find him funny. It's quite evident that he has problems,and is some what stupid!

Feeling That Can't Really Be Described

Lately I've been feeling strange. Like something is going to happen. I try to explain to my friends,but they automatically think mother nature is going to drop off her gift soon, and that I'm just emotional. I feel like the change that will be coming soon is either going to be good, or tragic(and I mean tragic as in something that is really far fetch & there's no hope,not death tragic...). When I think of it, it makes me sad,and most of all scared. I wouldn't know how to deal with "whatever it is" when it happens. I usually get this feeling on the bus, on my way to school; or right before I go to sleep. I try to think of good things, but it always turn back to me running away. I think that's why I want to take a road trip so bad. I need to get away,I need to look,find, or get something. I just need to go!

P.S: I hate the way that black cat looks at me in the morning

P.S.S: My little sister hates that black cat too!

P.S.S.S: I want to turn into another creature. Something like Avatar, but I'll be brown, black, gold, and forest green. My eyes will be stone green, and I'll have long gold hair. Could you imagine a beautiful creature like that =]

I Need To Get Back

I need to get back to my creative side. I lost it some where under all these exceptions, and piles of work that was drop on me since the beginning of senior year. I still have to send those pictures for yearbook, and keep my mind fresh and ready for anything that comes my way. I went to 42 street time square, and it was a huge mess. For some reason I felt the need to go on my own, just to see if I was still myself. The million dollar questing is, was I still myself? Bing Bing Bing Bing, yes I am. I arrived there sort of late, but I didn't care. I went to ForEver21, since they had the plus size line there, and I was looking for a class mate who work there, but I couldn't find her. Anyways, I saw some cute things, some cute things on sale and I went ahead and bought them. I haven't went shopping in a long time. This is what I bought!

I didn't actually buy this because they didn't have my size,but I love it!

I saw this and thought "For something so simple, you caught my eye!"

For that dress,I was thinking about suede pumps. It seems fitting, and I knew exactly where to go to!

These shoes are wide width at Torrid.com for just $39.

OK,so back to my shopping day. I walked to 34 fourth street, and went to Macy's because I had to use the restroom. Coming back from the restroom, I saw that big old red mailbox, for children to send their letters to Santa. I wanted to kick that crap to the floor. Old jolly, cookie eating, gray hair Santa didn't give me anything I wanted when I was a child. But when I saw the children sitting there, trying their best to write, made my heart melt, and it was kind-of touching. So I went on to H&M and got me a shirt that could fit, to my best of ability! HA! Then I went back to my Drama place, that I called a home =]

I'm a little light headed, so I'll be hitting my bed real soon.

P.S: I hope your Holiday goes great this year

P.S.S: I slowly starting my fashion blogging again!

P.S.S.S: She found the big book of Sugar,Spice & Everything Nice!

P.S.S.S.S: I'm going to get closer to God, and I'll ask him for help...goodnight!

I Always Knew You Were Unfair,But At Least Have The Decency To Hide It

True Facts Spoken

Today just made me realize, the only dependent I should have is myself. How I feel, and what I say don't matter much to many people. Not saying that it should,just speaking facts.

You Can Say I'm Bored

So far this holiday weekend short-of sucks!

I need a job! The constant sitting around,doing nothing makes me mad. I have to be productive here and there. I wouldn't mind my free time if I had some place to go,or something to do. A car would be lovely. Being a teenager have it's perks,your young, and time doesn't seem against you some times,but when your bored out of your mind things could go left. Lucky me my mind doesn't allow me to do bad things such as drug,and other things. The fact still remains that I need something to do. Unfortunately, almost everything revolves around money,which I don't have.

What ever happen to programs that offer teenagers jobs, activities, and people to help you get education and scholarships. It seems like we're on our own,and quit frankly no one cares. What they don't understand is that a good body and function without a good head. So yes, our head is missing,and so is the will of most young people. It's sad because we all know what comes after this,pure disaster.

P.S: I didn't type about Homecoming,it's coming, I just need to get everything together and not get disturbed.

P.S.S: I already know how you are, no need to hide it.

PS.S.S:Fashion Blogging I'll give you another try!

Homecoming....It's more like "I'm Back Snitch!"

So homecoming was so fun!!!!

It landed on a Wednesday,meaning 50 cents per-wing at Pizzahut! So me and Janiri went to kill some time,and after that we headed to the near by mall. While at the mall with Janiri we decied to go to Ms.Doll's house. When went through the back, and was lost in ANOTHER building for a good 10 mins. Going there didn't really mean anything anyways because she was going out, and of course we couldn't stay. When leaving, out of all people we bumped into Hella! Janiri wanted to walk her all the way to Ms.Doll's house,but I couldn't. So I tried to help her as best as I can,and I sent her on her way.

We went to the mall, which didn't really do much,cause we basically walked in and walked out HA!

When we arrive we just remembered that we had to pick up the photographer, and bring him to the gym to take some pictures of our basketball team. I had a few problems with that whole Basketball Game that night.

1. There were too many outsiders there,and little kids trying to look cute(if I saw my little sister there,I would knock the mess out of her)
2. They started letting people in at 4, when the game starts at 5!
3. They sold too many tickets knowing there wasn't enough space!
4. They DIDN'T GIVE ME BACK MY MONEY
5. and one of my classmate acted as though we were strangers

From my understanding,those outsiders tried to rob one of the good guys in our school. I knew who invited all those "outsiders", and I told him not to bring them because they can get out of hand. He was offended,but I was right!

Moving along, homecoming was amazing! I saw so many old faces it warmed my heart (no joke).

I had a few mishaps,but I'm going to try and get passed it. Kathy, and many more(by the way I never knew you guys didn't like each other,sorry for putting you in that awkward picture). Speaking of pictures, the same people always jumped in the picture, which I didn't like.

1. If your a Jr. or even a freshman, I don't mind you being there,but please don't try and jump into every picture. Its not fair, this is our last year, let us have it. I might sound like a baby, but your time is next year, so go that ---------> way!
2. I also didn't like the fact that some people insisted we take pictures of only one group of people. Ummmm no, that's not happening!
3. Just because I let three people pass,doesn't mean anything! You did the same thing! So don't try and get me in trouble.....Stupid, don't you know I have connections HA!!!!!!!!

After that beautiful reconnection's, we did the same thing we did last year and went to the mall!

Janiri really didn't want to go,but I didn't want to take no for an answer....she end up loving it.

We left the mall at 9 something, it was a good day.

P.S:I know I'm late,but I had to post the events that happen that night!

What!?

Tomorrow is school again,where I spent useless hours looking at a non-caring teacher! Janiri told me"If nothing changes, then your life becomes a routine." Well nothing is changing and my life is slowly becoming a routine. I want fun,excitement, and liberty. I don't see that in school. What ever happen to those teachers who made you want to come to class? Those teachers who made you really think over your whole life,and what the future holds for you? Have our elders failed us?

I should start venturing out on my own. I would love to beg my friends to come along,but if they decide not to,that shouldn't stop me. There have to be ONE pumping heart out there in this world! Hopefully I'll meet it....

For some reason my mind just flopped on me (>__<")

DAM WRITER'S BLOCK!!!!!Publish Post

P.S: Sooner or later I'm going to flow towards my Fashion Thoughts and Clothing

P.S.S: I need a job. The money is nice, but I have to keep myself busy,gain some type of experience.

Phenomenal!!!!!!

OK I love her!!!!!!

This commercial is so hot,and I'm straight!

I think it's the amount of confidence she carried in the commercial,as though she owned it. I want to be that way when I get older =]

Writing Away My Boredom

So I'm writing away my boredom. I never give my story a title,mainly because I feel like I'm forcing it to go one way. For example if I called it "Those Walks In Central Park", then my story will have to be forced in some way to incorporate Central Park in everything. So I'm keeping it simple and allowing my clear mind write it. If I feel there's too much disturbance,then I'm going to stop automatically. I don't want my natural flow of creativity to be tainted by someone, or thing.

P.S: Shenice is Home!!!! I'm happy,cant wait to spend time with my college bond bestie!

P.S.S: I need to go to a party really soon,and dance. For some reason I'm starting to feel as though I cant dance any more.

P.S.S.S: And if that's the case,please God don't allow that to happen,oh yeah,and bless the needy, and those that need help in love,family, and life in general.

P.S.S.S.S: I cant be selfish!

What A Fun Week!

So this week was a great week. A lot of fun, and birthdays! Birthdays, as in growing up,another year has passed! Its a tad bit scary for me, but I'm learning to accept it. Janiri told me to day "If nothing changes, then your life becomes a routine." Which was so nicely put together. When I think about it, she's right. Yes being happy is nice, but change can bring more then happiness. So now I'm like scared, and excited all at the same time,which is stupid,but I can't fight with my emotions,they make me who I am. Now I can't wait to do things,and its starting this Friday,in central park. I wrote a story about my character meeting some one in central park,maybe if I go there,I could get some more good ideas.

Had fun this whole week!!!!!!

P.S: I want to meet new people

P.S.S: Rocket Ships, and different universes put my mind to rest

P.S.S.S: I wonder if we were to find creatures like us,are they going to be prettier like AVATAR!

Birthday Week!!!! Great Success!

So my birthday week went really well,except for some mishaps. For one I didn't get my red velvet cake, and as predicted I my father didn't call me for my birthday. Other then those two everything went swell. Tanisha took me to this burger spot, which was really good,but before that we spent time walking 5th avenue. It was kind of funny trying to figure out who's the really rich people. Then the next day me and Janiri went to Sea restaurant. It was amazing,though we didn't spend much time in the restaurant,we did explore the area. We walked almost every inch,and corner of that place.

There was even one point when we saw a whole bunch of commotion on one street,but then Janiri said it wasn't a good idea to be nosey,and she was right! She paid for TWO lovely hats that SHE found at the thrift shop. What surprised me was cute men were actually buying things from there. In my head the whole time I thought these men most have paid a lot of money on their "smooth" wardrobe, but they get it at the THRIFT shop. It was just simply amazing!!! I want to go back down there and probably wait for my European man. Oh who the hell I'm I kidding,I just love that area!

This was picture was on some random wall,which I saw many other cool art works but didn't take a picture of it.

This was our food,well the appetizers, they we're soooo yummy good!!!!

This was like a moving art work in another Thai restaurant, lovely view!

This was me in front of some really well polished building, look at those doors.

We found this locked door,and thought "Lets take some pictures here"

Me and Janiri (^__^)

Me and Tanisha waiting for a train :}

"I FEEL LIKE A UNICORN"

HAHAHAHA!!!! Thats was what I told today,but it made me feel a little better that I wasn't alone!

"For Colored Girls"

So thanks to spontaneous Lilly, and Tanisha seeing a movie is off my list. I went to see "For Colored Girls" and it was simply amazing. It was crazy we went to the movie theater in Fresh Meadows, and we saw Tanisha's friend. When I saw him, I knew him from some where, but couldn't put my fingers on it. He gave us free pop corn, and other things, which was extremely nice of him. Come to find out it was Dylan's best friend. I remembered reading Dylan's blog, and seeing their picture. While walking back, I was just thinking what if? What if Janiri dragged me along to meet Dylan some place and there he is? Its going to be like "Yo, your that girl from the movies, Tanisha's friend!?" Ha! it would be a classic moment.

Anyways "For Color Girls" touched on so many things that people don't understand. It wasn't the typical Tyler Perry movie, it was really planed out, and heart felt. There were several parts that really connected to me. Like when one of the girls said "How dare we complain,we're colored girls", and also when another character said "Big lips, and big hips..." It touched on so many things, that most African American women would have trouble speaking about,but I do recommend this movie.

P.S: So now that movies is out of the way, we can do something else.

P.S.S: Over a sudden I want a prom date, which is weird :/

BIG HAIR AND DREAMS!

So I took out my bad weave, and my head is still sore, or tender. I had it in since the summer,it's amazing how it stayed nice for so long.I still have to cut it though, which I'm putting off as much as much as I can.

I want my hair just like her, or better.

P.S: SAT'S were today, and I think I sucked. But it makes no sense caring because this world expects too much from me!

Descent Blood

So today was a descent day. It wasn't much going on,it was as if people made an unspoken agreement that we'll all be calm. You had one or two ghetto people here and there, but it wasn't enough to mess up the flow of the day.

I wanted to give blood today,but couldn't because the iron level in my blood was too low. My thing is why have a blood drive in the first week of November? Its common knowledge that majority of females have their little gift from mother nature in the beginning and ending of the month. It just doesn't add up! So now I guess I have to give blood at another time, and place. It really disappointed me because for a very long time now I've been wanting to give blood, and when I'm able to do so I couldn't because I was couple of points low! *Sign* I guess I'll do another time.

P.S: I was placed on the Honor Roll,that made my day a little!

P.S.S: We're growing up which makes me sad,but I'll get passed it =)

P.S.S.S: Simple bliss is starting to set in

"WHAT WAS THAT !?"

So I'm sick today because someone gave me a cold,but its what ever. I keep seeing this black thing passing by me,really fast. While typing this, it happen again, and since I'm in the house alone I was really scared. I just stopped typing, and waited for my mom to come home.

Since she's home now,I could continue my thoughts.

I feel much better,I still cant eat so much, but I'll get passed it. I want to take boxing classes, and some yoga classes here and there. I'm also in the mood for a road trip, but to bad I cant drive, or have anyone who'll come with me. One day I'll just go by myself, and see how things work out for me!

P.S: I think I have psychic powers

P.S.S: Don't laugh at me I'm really scared!

Thoughts that seem to never go away!

I keep saying I want to have a love affair with a European man. In all honesty that sound fine, but I really just want someone new to talk to. I mean someone that dropped out of no where, and they came from "no man's land". I keep thinking if this new person came out of no where,I would be able to express almost everything to he/she. Then I would want them to disappear,and all that I spoke of will become a well kept secret.

This is just one,VERY SIMPLE thought of mines.

I hope my thoughts will not crush me.

Birthday Plans & Wishes

So my birthday is 1 week ,and 2 days away(from my understanding). I want to do something---> You know what!? I really don't know what to do,I know eating is some where in there, but as for activities I'm not really sure. I'm going to be very honest I'm really not too excited for my birthday. Something always happens to me on my birthday. It happen like three years in a row, and I just stopped trying to have too much fun,because I knew there would be something bad waiting for me around the corner. I also won't tell my father that it's my birthday. I'm going to wait and see if he remember' it on his own. I'm 16 years old, you should know, or at least have a feeling around the first two weeks of November.

SOME IDEA OF WHAT I WANT TO DO!

• Ceramic painting at Make Meaning. For one person, for one day is $12. That's not including the ceramic, it's to cover the paint, and the paint bushes. An average ceramic is $20, so all together my friends would be paying $22. I don't think they would pay that just to paint some clay, but it's really not that much. I found another place located in Brooklyn that coast $8 for adults, and $5 for 16 and younger. It's called The Painted Pot, and since it's so
  • convenient to my next idea!
  • Then I want to go to the restaurant called SEA. It's located in Brooklyn, the good part,and the area is really calm.
• Then I wanted to go horse back riding. Its $37 for 40 minutes.

What to try something different this year,and I really hope it goes well.

You Never Seem To Learn Do You?

Your back to your old ways,and you don't even see it. Ha, your such a fool xD I cant wait till you crash and burn like the first time,and this time people won't have pity on you.

Nonchalant Attitude!!!

Nonchalant mood right now,it's the perfect time to express myself, but I'll let Lilly Allen do that.

Dead End!!!!!!

I fell in love with this short film,it's very good. Watching this though made me miss my Netflix! So so sad =(

Pictures & Dreams

I promised my self that I will start taking pictures of my everyday self,or outfit. I haven't done it yet,but I'm planning to.

Goodnight: I wish you good dreams,and a better tomorrow!

Night Night

Well its time for me to go to sleep,and I'm putting my clothes together. This is how most African American girls look like before going to bed. They tie their hair down,and wash their face with whatever face wash,and do a nightly prayer(to ask for a great man,and a new bag!). Well I don't think all African American women ask for a new bag but I'm pretty sure they ask for a good man. I just want a Gucci bag coming in every week,well thats what I hope for.

Well Goodnight Blog,and lets hope my prayers come true,and I'll hope you're come true too!

P.S: My cousin gave me his never used camera, and now I have TWO!!!!

P.S.S: I just love it when things fall into place ;)

School(Another Storm),and Fashion!!!!

So today was a little quite day,but non the less it was good. (By the way my step father thinks I'm emailing a "boyfriend" -_-! )

1. Today the rain came down heavy just when I left my house.
2. The Q44 closed the door on me just as I got in front of the door.
3. I have first period gym,but my teacher didn't stress me out about it,and he didn't mark me unprepared =D.

In yearbook class I'll call him the "King" made little remarks about my weight. Now I know I'm not as big as other girls,but for the every first time I felt a little insecure. It was new to me,and I didn't know how to handle it. I never let anyone,or thing get to me, so I don't know how it happened. I'm just worried if it would happen again but this time in front of more people, I wouldn't know how to deal with it? :/ "Getting Crazy" is one way,but I don't want to look ghetto, so I might kill him with intelligent remarks. I'm not as smart as some people,but I have my moments :).....

Lately I have been straying away from the real purpose of this blog,so I'll get right back to it FASHION!!!!

So this brand never dose it wrong with there plus size line! Love these outfits with all my heart!

These Two Outfits are simply amazing!

I haven't forgotten about my my small girls!

This is amazing for girls with nice backs,like really tall people.

This look is great for short people,because mid-high heels give a nice look.

This is all for today,but I'll be sending an open letter to Forever21 tomorrow,stay tuned!

P.S: Tomorrow will be the first time I'll take a full body picture to show off my style.

Yikes!!!! I'm a little scared

While Baking,I'm Thinking!

I haven't blog in such a long time,so I'll type what I think is important as of now. It's time for college applications to go in and I figured out that I want to some what go solo. I was looking at the Forbes list and all I saw was Billionaires who dropped out! I'm not saying I'm completely done with college,and that I'll be like them,but someone said to me "College is a business". I remember watching on the news,a man from Yale University handing out his resume on the streets for a job. It was sad watching his pride slipping away slowly. So I'm thinking about starting something good,and something that can be unique so that no one can copy me.

So me and turtle is really getting along with....lets just call her "hamster". This new blossoming friendship seems to be going along well. Lets just hope or now enemies don't mess up our senior activities, no let me re-word that. They better not mess up my senior activities, I don't play that! And even though I don't know who exactly did it,I'm still kicking ass!

This London trip will not be happening. I don't trust the other students first of all. I was willing to go until I saw the group(and it's not all the people), and when I was told I will not be receiving my $95 back if ten people don't sign up, it really had me thinking. $95 is not a lot for air fair,but just to loose is a lot to me!

By the way I'm making a strawberry cake!!!!

I wish I could do this in my school for Breast Cancer & Heart Decease

The Day Drup Drup have been made LMAO

Tracy Morgan In Soho :D

Me and my friends sometimes go to Soho randomly,and always bump into a celebrity! So this time we bumped into Tracy Morgan in front of Bloomingdales. We looked a little upset,and at first me and Tanisha was scared to talk to him. Tanisha end up doing the talking because I froze! Other then that he's a very nice guy,most celebrities would have ignored us,or curse us out.

By the way I cut my hair!!!!!!

New Dance Coming From South America!

A video recently came out showing a new dance starting in South America. It's like the person (and I mean the person because it happens to both boys and girls) bumps back and forth while the other dance on them. It's like a merge between "the bump" and "the jerk". I think it's OK =), especially since it's like a team work,and it looks very fun. People say it's stupid,but I think they only say that because it's not from the States! Come on people lets have an open mind!

Sleep Time :)

So before I go to bed I had somethings on my mind

Why is yellow so mellow?

Can the stars really tell a story?

And rockets and love sounds really good together....GOODNIGHT!!!!

Dreaming One Night by ketlean featuring custom made jewelry

Twitter!

Did the unthinkable and made a Twitter. I kind of did it to promote my blog even more. In order to get where I need to get, I need a Twitter to socialize and get my name out there.I have no problem asking people I don't know to read it,successful people did it,it's called promoting. Yet this whole twitter thing is already getting on my nerves. I will stick with it for another week or so,and I'll see if it would help.

Storm!!!!

Super Women could pick that up in one second,but I tried :/

Well yesterday was something crazy. Thank god our change of plan took us to Austin street,instead of Soho. Tanisha was babysitting,so I went there since the Q88 drops me right in front of my destination. I spent time with her nephew Chi-Chi, and bought a Red-Mango yogurt that coast me $4.90! I finish that before I even hit the front of the door. We met up with her college friend name Jean (in French it's pronounced differently). We went to Austin street to eat,but he wanted to do a little shopping first.

While in this "upper-class" store,I saw a thunder and knew it was about to rain,but we had a good ten minutes before it started.

This is Before with Tanisha & Jean

I wasn't there because I was in Pay-Less getting some new shoes. Something told me in the back of my mind to get new shoes,because I was going to need it.I don't throw out money all the time,so I knew I needed to get it.

We ended up in a store,and by now the thunder bolds were coming more frequent then usual. When we were walking towards the restaurant we saw people with their babies in carriages. I took out my umbrella and then the rain started. It was like stage 1, then stage 2, by then me and Tanisha was running. By the time we hit the corner stage 3 had begone, and we lost her friend. The wind blew so hard but we had to find him. We enter the restaurant not a second late,because they were about to close the door. Something broke and flew off,and the windows were cracking from the pressure.

The way the wind blew + the rain was amazing. It was something out of a movie. We called her friend and he was safe next door at the other restaurant. He said the tables were flying,the plates were too.He came next door,and he looked amazed by the whole thing.

This was us after the whole ordeal,clearly you could see us all messed up! But that didn't last for long,because we ate!

This was us eating up a storm lmao,I didn't mean to make that corny joke.

Let me just tell you the wings were great!!!

This was just one damage from the restaurant. The managers look very stressed out by the accumulating damages.

The door broke off,I should have robbed a bank.

Seeing this little boy in the car hurt me. The damage was right by the window,and thank good he didn't get hurt. His mother was pregnant too,she said she had to go to the hospital to see if her baby was ok *tear-tear*. I hope all the babies that were caught in the storm were safe.

Trees fell hard,and thank god it wasn't on us.

The concrete lifted!

By the time we got to the train station,it was an even bigger mess that happen. We end up breaking the law and sneaking in. Then some random guy ALMOST threw up on us.

But here is our happy,and even fun ending!!!

This Was the Reason Why School was closed!!!